como la mariposa...

Don't you hate when everything is going perfect, and all of a sudden something brings you down? this is the kind of day when you decide, "I don't want to live anymore". I had so many days like this, where I can't say no more, because the pain is so intense that all I am thinking is, " I live on a shit hole, and I can't get out". But then there is something that tells you, "Stop, your problem won't be solve if you kill yourself", and that's when you dont give a fuck, and say " fuck you, I don't deserve to live, I can't take it no more." Then while you are about to take some pills, or cut your wrists, you noticed how stupid and childish you are acting for a simple problem you have."Great, I just made a complete fool of myself!"  then the person you love the most tells you to stop being depressed, and screams at you, when you keep saying "you dont get it", and well obviously you don't get it because you've never been there! but you remember about "la mariposa" as to say happiness. Happiness comes in moments, is something temporary and something you can't hold on to, just like a butterfly, you can't keep her for too long because she will die. Butterflies can live from a week to a year long. They go to stages such as egg, larva, and adult. When they reach the adult stage, I see it as a way of nirvana, when you are in total peace. My point is, I believe they are meant to live for a short period of time because they mean happiness,they got to their stage of total peace. You can't keep them, otherwise they will die sooner than expected. Its a matter of keep her and she will die soon, or let her go and will live for another week. The solution is to only live the moment, because nothing is forever, and when I mean nothing I mean something.

PS: maybe I am talking shit but this just made me smile and feel better about myself.